17/18 Months

I was going through Blog posts that I never finished and I know I got really bogged down because of not being able to add pictures. So I am just posting these notes so I have them to remember. I have already loved looking back on her first year and reading things I don't remember. I would hate to not do that for this year just because there are no pictures...


17/18months

First sentence (she said others but not as clear) 8/18 its a pretzel! yum yum!

Calls the cats - the mowe. like...hi the mowe!

hot, helmet- 8/20 other words- bear,

started trying to jump 8/13

first time spinning in circles- i was outside with her and she started spinning and kind of humming to herself, 8/20

favorite movie- finding nemo- fishy

signs more, dog, bird, food, milk, water. if she wants something she moves her hands like she is signing so she can get it.

pretends to take food from books ( like pictures of cookies and such) and put it in her mouth

loves stuffed bears, especially the black one cory got from colorado.

Check in and reality check

So I had my check in for the competition at work yesterday. And lets just say it was a reality check for me 126 lbs and 25% body fat. That is right, both went up by one instead of down.

But, I need to be honest with myself. I used to think it was so funny to see people acting exactly how I am now. Talking about what they know about losing weight or being healthy etc. All while chowing down on a cheese burger or going out for ice cream. I have not been a great eater. If Cory wants to get ice cream, I say "Why not?" If I don't have time to make dinner, we get whatever is easiest, not the most healthy. I tell myself I am doing ok and no big deal. But....I am not.

Once upon a time, before I had a child, I was so good! I was healthy and not because I had to be, because I wanted to be. I loved what I ate and loved finding good healthy foods for us to eat. I loved working out and had no problem going before or after work. I just got home whenever and then hung out with Cory.

Now, I am tired. Waking up early to work out does not sound as refreshing as it once did and it really tires me out. The thought of getting all sweaty when I just took my one of 2 showers for the week is not so appealing anymore. Spending time planning menus and going grocery shopping (i actually used to enjoy this.) its just time I do not have. So I opt to grab food. I make all these plans to set a day aside to make a bunch of food for the week, but that day is also spent cleaning and I rarely and probably have never actually done both in one day. When I used to do anything to make sure I had healthy food and a good work out, I am more inclined to stay home and spend time with Cory and Jocelyn because I really only get from around 6pm-8pm each night to do so (half of which is spent making and cleaning up from dinner or getting diner) and I hate giving my entire Saturday with them up just to clean and cook.

A lot of excuses? Most likely yes. I know I need to buck up and figure something out. I am just overwhelmed. It was easier when it was not winter and I could work out AND spend time with Jocelyn. So....its time to make another plan. I want to work out, it makes me happy. I want to eat healthy and spend time with my family. So now is the time to figure out how best to do so.

So....any working moms out there have suggestions of what works for them? Especially in the winter?

Check In-kind of

Lets talk about this check in. Or I will talk and you can move on.

Last week I was good. I ate well. I exercised well. I even made a dessert one day for a gathering and threw it away when everyone left so I would not be tempted to keep eating at it. I was good.

I loved working out. It was nice.

Then the weekend hit. I have had three migraines in three days. This kills the exercise thing. It also kills my eating because I have to take Excedrin and drink something with caffeine. Gross. Not to mention how I feel when I drink some huge sugary drink and sit around all day.

So I went from feeling AWESOME to...crap. And I weighed myself today and felt like crap. I know my goal is not really weight centered, but my body fat will not be tested again until next Monday. Weight is what I have to go on right now. And I gained 2.5 lbs. It could be a fluke. It could be that certain things are happening with my body. But its still annoying. Anyway. Its been a couple of those days. I need to up my motivation again and get going! Is anyone else trying to stick with any goals? How are you doing?

Truth

I was browsing around today and found this quote. I LOVE it.

"You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy."

-Thomas S. Monson